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Saturday, July 12th, 2008
4:13 pm	People dont start out as your family; they become it. Nick recently asked himself what family is. He then shared with me some of his thoughts. Unknowingly i have continued to create thoughts of my own on the topic. My family is a group of people who i have grown accustomed to so greatly that i no longer try to change their shortcomings. In my mind that simply is who they are. I continue to ponder this and realize thats what love is as well. Accepting your partner for all their qualities. You cant be comfortable with someone if you keep trying to change them. If it is in someones nature to be violent, i suggest not enticing them, and probably encourage them to be an athlete or a military personnel. If it is in someone elses nature to bring happiness to people, let them meet as many people as they can. If it is in someones nature to be reclusive, give them peace so that they may engulf themselves in solitude. We are all good and we are all evil and we are all somewhere in between. So stop and accept each other for everything we have to offer, and be grateful for what we ourselves can become. Current Mood: sad; determined; understanding Current Music: My own voice reading everything that i write. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 8th, 2008
3:54 am	"you have been sprinting to middle age" yes i have been. i grew up while i was still in middle school. while most were off playing with their friends, i was doing my laundry. while most were washing their hands for dinner, i was making mine. while most are looking for fun and exciting relationships, im looking for possible life-partners. while most are figuring out what they want to do today, im figuring out what to do to keep all my money. honestly, my up-bringing and my money have forced me to be this way. i started being independent in 2nd grade, and i havent been able to stop ever since. my mom once borrowed $16 from me for getting mcdonalds after a soccer game and forgot to pay me back until 3 months later. i was about 9. i faced death for a few months when i was 10. before i was in high school i would every so often have to buy my own dinners when we felt like going out to eat. when i was 15 a friend of mine died. by 17 i had a drivers license and nary drove as a passenger with my parents afterwards. right after 19 i owned my own car fully paid off, insurance and all. i moved out of my house into an apartment at the same time. i dont ask my parents for money, they ask me for it. almost a year ago my dad had to borrow $5000 from me to help with the family house. i take care of all the bills and head the house im renting. i highly considered putting a mortgage on a house after this lease is up. ive meticulously argued the pros and cons of going back to college. im postulating building a small business. i did my own taxes, only being told where to find what id need. i dont know what my hurry is. i just know if i get it all done and set now, that leaves the rest of my life to do what i truly want. if i dont fuck around now, i can get whats important done now, and not waste any time. i feel alone in my own house. its 5 in the morning, i spent the whole day with people, 2 close friends are sleeping over right now, and i still feel alone. only late at night and when im very frustrated do i let on what goes on in my mind. and yet in the end of all of this sharing, i am still happy, because i know that my life has never been terrible, i have always been able to handle myself well. my life has never been a bed of roses, but my life has never been a bed of nails, either. isnt it funny; you could be the luckiest person ever, and youd still have problems. Current Mood: gloomy (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 25th, 2007
7:58 pm	this could be really good for my singing career so ive been singing whenever im in my room, or while in my car, because it helps me get out all the depression ive been going through. im coming from a relationship that ended very abruptly, and ive been without renee for long periods of time, both making me feel very alone with no way of escaping it. there has been a lot of drama running through the house, almost if not all of which ive gotten caught up into the middle of. im also pinned into the position of being the responsible "father" role, which isnt so terrible, but certainly its a lot extra that i was not intending on taking on, especially at age 20. the house itself has enough problems without kelly and brad continually bringing up suing the landlords and screwing them over and telling them to fuck off, bla bla bla, because as much as i agree the action is necessary, i dont see how suing them and being a little bitch is going to make a difference in our lives. it just seems very immature to me. however, i am at the point where im just going to be proactive about everything and anything that needs to be done with the house to make up for their lack of fervor. truly the thing thats most distressing is not having renee near me. especially with those around me being with their significant others often. its like im single but without the possiblity of going after someone. if she were just here, id have someone to cuddle with and hold and talk to through my problems when it gets too heavy. whats more, ive been so sexually frustrated that my mind goes all over the place when i think of girls. i just feel like grabbing a girl, bringing her to my room, and mess around with her just to get it out of my system. its a good thing i pride myself of my honor, cuz otherwise i might have truly attempted such things before. but that is too awful a thing for me to ever do, to renee, and to myself. why make her feel like that, and why lower my character so much? so im going to go back to my singing every day, until ive sung my lungs out, and renee is back in america, and in my arms. this entire entry was brought about because while i was singing today, with amber nick kelly and brad in the car, i actually started to cry while i sang one of the songs, "breathe you in." no one noticed, even though my more than somber mood was noted twice in the day, both of which i simply brushed off. time to pick someone up to get stuff done for other people. Current Mood: kinda pathetic Current Music: "breathe you in" - Thousand Foot Krutch (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 10th, 2007
2:20 am	i feel wicked drained lately. i havent given myself much sleep, mostly cuz i keep trying to stay awake long enough that renee will be at school before her class and we can talk for about 1/2 hour. that means me staying up til 3:30, when her class starts. plus i havent been eating nearly as much, and its starting to get to me. im going grocery shopping tomorrow right after work so i have plenty enough food for myself for the rest of the week. ive got packing to keep doing for the move friday. also ive had work every day since friday, and i dont get a break til wednesday. and each day is 8 hours, except today was 4 hours. ive gotta open in less than 8 hours. i gotta organize the nbpt places i found so i see how worth it the places are. then once im moved, look at the places, most likely with nick in tow. im too busy this week, what the hell. renee being in prague only gets to me some random times during the day, but also every night it does. cuz i wanna come home from work, and be able to sign online and talk to her. or even get calls from her to setup plans for my days off. i think i can still recall the sound of her voice. im trying right now, and its not working very well. i might have gotten something, but im not sure. i can certainly picture her though, thats no problem. i did get to talk to her on the phone though, like a week ago. that was nice. being the person left back at home sucks. i kinda need to sleep now. really badly. im already half asleep now anyways. so goodnight. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: big girl you are beautiful - mika (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 29th, 2007
9:25 pm	guys, guys, guys... i have a date. that sounds so weird, lol. i mean especially with how hard i was taking it when tiff first broke up with me. but now i dont even consider "keeping myself available for tiff in case she changes her mind" cuz i know, its not gonna happen. and im cool with that... that kinda weirds me out from time to time, too. but i think about it as she is looking for someone to make her happier. ive even told her, twice if not three times, that shed better not settle on someone who doesnt make her happier. otherwise shed just be being dumb. but im happy with the new guy she seems to be with. she tells me he takes care of her like i did. thats all i needed to hear. but damn, a date. it blows my mind every time i think about it. im excited. i dont understand how i was able to just come out and ask her if she wanted to go to the movies or dinner or lunch sometime soon. im sure it helped that we both were very obvious about liking eachother, but i dunno, it still seems crazy to me that i did that. flirting is fun, lol. Current Mood: excited Current Music: lots of songs (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 25th, 2007
12:47 pm	ive been feeling pretty happy lately. i think mostly because the whole tiff thing has passed through me, and now i dont worry about it. but what has also been keeping me happy is seeing how socially involved i am with other peoples lives. obviously this is most with nick, dan, and andrew. but i also think of dj, even though i dont see it anywhere specifically. and it feels nice to see random old friends or acquaintances and be like "hey lets hang out sometime soon" because i actually make it happen, or try to as much as i can. another thing is that tiff actually seems happen to see me when i give her her mail. like she just perks right up about talking to me, which wasnt quite the case before. so it feels good to know that things will probably be getting better between us. i dont like losing friends, and i dont like people disliking me. plus, i was so involved with her, and to lose something like that completely, would not be enjoyable to say the least. plus it makes living down here slightly more comfortable, since friends are hard to come by without school. well ive got to start getting ready for work. i start my first day of retail for lenscrafters in 50 minutes. how exciting. all i really care about is that it gives me full time hours. thats all i need : ) Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: This is a Call - Thousand Foot Krutch (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 18th, 2007
2:57 am	californication fuckin california. im sure if youre reading this youve already read nicks entry. i know i have. i really do think it would be great. my sister apparently not so much, but its not her life so no worries. still. fuckin california. it keeps going through my head now. i really was thinking very hard before i made my decision, and id be lying if i said i felt no pressure to agree for their sakes. but i dont mind it. its becoming all very real, though, and thats whats wracking my brain so much, the reality of this momentous trip. i feel immature to take the trip, and yet feel like i will become more mature after the trip. i certainly cant think of a better way to spend my money. i use money as a tool to create social events with others. thats why i went to germany, thats why i will go on this trip, and thas why i will probably go on future trips. i dont need to see the sites, i need to see the people. sure i could find plenty of other cheaper ways to spend my time with people, but why? what else should i use my money for? to save it up, again for what purpose? to buy a house for myself. thats quite an accomplishment. but that doesnt matter to me as much. id rather have a tighter bond with my friends than to own a house. perhaps i should give my money to charity? but why spend it in such a way when i know what i want to do with that money. i understand the good that could come out of charity, but i can see the good that comes out of it when i use that money for my friends and our lives. there are but a few things i want in my lifetime. i want great friendships. i want a family as great as it can be. and i want the money enough to support all these things. the means is immaterial to me, the result is what carries such utter importance. if my life ends with all these things being fulfilled, i will die a happy, and completed, man. Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Schizophrenic Conversations - Staind (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 2nd, 2007
6:57 am	deja vu: a coincidence, a guiding light, or evidence of psychic abilities? a believe the latter, totally disagree with the former, and enjoy the prospect of the middle. The sun had "come out tomorrow." It was but a brief reprieve, for the eclipse came all too soon. But look! The sun has returned, with a greater brilliance than ever to be known. I now bask in the sunlight, and delight in every ray of opportunity that shines down upon me. Current Mood: poetic Current Music: Nothing Better - Postal Service (Comment on this)
Monday, December 11th, 2006
1:15 am	fick! arsch! naja, wie gehts alle? ich wollte meine Uni wechseln weil physik schlucht. viel. aber ich hab keine motivation. und ich muesste umass amherst besuchen. ich hab kein wahl anders als da. und dann ich muesste wieder umlegen. und so weiter. ein besonderes problem ist dass tiff wollte mit mir bleiben naechstes jahr. und moeglich bridgewater besuchten. ich vermisse 'schland. und deutsch reden. Current Mood: nostalgisch Current Music: hand hoch - curse (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006
6:40 pm	2005; in a 2006 perspective ( ) stayed single ( ) got your first kiss ( ) kissed someone new ( ) made-out for the first time (X) made-out in a car (X) kissed in the snow (X) kissed in the rain (X) fell in love ( ) fell in love with a fool ( ) had your heart broken ( ) broke someone else's heart ( ) had a stalker (X) had a good relationship with someone ( ) questioned your sexual orientation ( ) came out of the closet (X) gotten pregnant (Inside joke) ( ) gotten someone else pregnant ( ) had an abortion ( ) gotten married ( ) had a divorce ( ) had a gay marriage ( ) kissed someone of the same sex (X) dated someone you'll never forget (X) done something you've regretted ( ) lost your true love forever ( ) lost faith in love ( ) kissed under mistletoe WORK/SCHOOL ( ) got a promotion (X) got a pay raise ( ) changed jobs ( ) lost your job (X) quit your job (Indoor Reffing) ( ) dated a co-worker ( ) dated your boss ( ) dated your boss' daughter/son ( ) got fired from your job ( ) got straight A's (X) met one teacher you really like ( ) met one teacher you really hated ( ) found the subject you love ( ) failed a class ( ) cut class (X) skipped school ( ) got into a fight with a classmate (X) did something you were proud of ( ) discovered a new talent ( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach ( ) proved yourself an idiot ( ) embarrassed yourself in front of the class ( ) fell in love with a teacher ( ) got lead in the school play (X) made a varsity team (X) were involved in something you'll never forget OTHER ( ) painted a picture ( ) wrote a poem/song ( ) ran a mile ( ) listened to music you couldn't stand (X) double-dipped ( ) skinny-dipped (X) went to a sleepover ( ) went to camp ( ) threw a surprise party ( ) laughed till you cried ( ) laughed till you peed in your pants (X) flirted shamelessly (X) visited a foreign country ( ) visited a foreign state ( ) cooked a disastrous meal ( ) lost something important to you (X) got a gift you adore (Barbie all the way!) ( ) realized something new about yourself ( ) went on a diet ( ) tried to gain weight ( ) dyed your hair ( ) came close to losing your life ( ) someone close to you died ( ) reunited with a friend ( ) made an accomplishment that shocked everyone ( ) realized your truest friends (\) told a secret that would ruin your life if revealed ( ) threw a wild party ( ) went to a wild party (X) drank alcohol ( ) drank alcohol underage ( ) did (a) drug(s) (\) got drunk ( ) got arrested (X) read a great book ( ) saw a great movie ( ) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry ( ) saw your favorite band/artist live ( ) saw someone famous in person (X) did something you want to tell everyone (X) Enjoyed this year overall Age you turned in 2005? 18 Was it a good year for you? yes Where were you when it began? my house Where will you be when it ends? my house What was your favorite moment(s) of the year? (blank) Did you have a New Years resolution for '05? no Did you keep it? yes Do you have a resolution for '06? no Did you change your hair this year? no Did you fall in love? not during this year Did you break up with anyone? no Did you make any new friends? yes What was your favorite month of '05? August Why? Germany How many states did you visit? None Did you lose anyone close to you in '05? not really What was your favorite movie? meh, i guess saw 2 cuz it had a plot What was your favorite song? animals by nickelback, or else beverly hills by weezer What was your favorite cd? steal this album by soad since its one of three cd's i got this year, and the other two were staind, and not so great. Did you do anything you're ashamed of? yes Favorite TV shows this year? celebrity poker Favorite hang out? cashman/waterfront Did you have a valentine? yes Funniest moment of '05? explaining that i was anatomically capable of birthing a child Most embarassing moment of '05? biker: "sorry!" Favorite commerical? i dont watch tv enough to have one Any new hobbies? coloring more often Did you get a new job? no Did you lose a job? no Did you get into a car accident? no How many people did you sleep with in '05? "three" really just one, but i got "impregnated" twice. Did you get any tickets? yes Did you get arrested? no What song will always remind you of '05? i dont think there ever will be one that reminds me of any year. Something you couldn't leave home without? my wallet/cell phone Any last thoughts on 2005? i didn't die... yay! Any plans for 2006? going to college in new york, it seems. leaving my dad and nagging mother. getting an apartment. Current Mood: tired yet dancing Current Music: The Calling - Adrienne (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
11:25 pm	If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post these instructions on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you. meh, i figure i might as well put something in here for an entry. this is just a good excuse, i guess. no more soccer, we lost our game tonight. at least we got into the quarter finals, but it ended tonight. it was fun while i was playing even though that wasnt very frequent. i doubt ill be doing college soccer, so ill do something like a mens team or pick up eventually, i assume. play with friends a bit, nothing too serious. but at least now i have more time for everything. well im off to bed now. goodnight. Current Mood: uncomfortable Current Music: "Thunder Underground" - Ozzy Osbourne (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 29th, 2005
10:38 pm	You are a Social Liberal (76% permissive) and an... Economic Liberal (28% permissive) You are best described as a: Strong Democrat Link: The Politics Test on OkCupid Free Online Dating Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test Current Mood: bothered Current Music: Schwarz, Weiss Kreuz - Die Prinzen (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
10:50 pm	"I never did understand your lack of regard for feelings. You have totally, utterly, and completely missed the entire point of that entry. Of course, it is typical of you to try and make yourself sound more intelligent than him by pointing out the typos. Unfortunately, all it shows is that you don’t care about Andy. You’d rather point out a trivial mistake than offer anything helpful or caring. That’s the PC version. What I really wanted to say was: Thank you so much for solidifying your title as “heartless bastard”. Wow. Can’t imagine why no one likes you. Good of you to point out the typos. I see you really got the message. Yes, you are truly an empathetic person. Oh, wait, I forgot, people without souls don’t like to acknowledge the feelings of others. They’re too busy trying to make themselves seem intelligent and perfect (neither of which you are, by the way, hate to break the news). Andy, I apologize for his totally missing the message. Unfortunately, he has a horrible mental disorder he can’t get over. It’s called “Asshole”. However, some felt it was a bit offensive. I don’t know tho, I kind of like it. After all, I’m not usually one to sugarcoat." something sent to me by my ex girlfriend. feels real good to read. mmhhmm. makes me want to start a bad habit. Current Mood: take a guess, its not tough Current Music: i wasnt even listening to the music (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 1st, 2005
12:39 am	wow, a second entry in the same week. im on a roll. just decided to tell everyone that im going off to germany august 21st and im getting back september 9th, so i miss the first two days of school. not so bad, eh? im gonna be getting my license the 9th, as long as everything works out well. tiffanys mood has been overall better. i think thats basically it. alright, goodnight. Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
11:38 pm	alright, bit of a rant here. hope you like rants. so dave. my oldest brother. a 32 year old. lives with my family. many things mentally wrong with him. i hate him. a lot. and i know i wont cry when he dies. and im sure lots of people have said this, and wouldnt really follow through, because theyre family, right? but you see, i have reasons to hate him. good reasons. but this isnt about why i hate him. im not going to tell you that one, its very personal. im here to talk about why he annoys me. makes me angry. he sits on me when im on the couch, and he weighs three times my weight, at least. and he only sits on me when im with tiffany watching tv or a movie. there may be a little room from me to the arm of the couch, and he'll sit right there. but he's bigger than the room between me and the arm of the couch. so he sits on me. and doesn't move. and doesn't say anything about it. and it hurts my leg. and makes my leg lose blood circulation. and he smells all the time. when i say smells, i dont mean the whole, ewww b.o., i mean the whole, b.o. from three weeks of wearing the same clothes each day. and he'll think tiffany and i are bet of friends with him, when all we want is free time with each other. and he'll make really annoying comments, or questions, or jokes that he'll laugh at and poke you in the side with his elbow to try and make you laugh with him, cuz the "bud in the side" is gonna make you laugh or suddenly think its funny, of course. now for today. different person. dont usually rant too much about them. but its needed. my mom. very forgetful lately. very illogical, the opposite of me. makes things up she thinks she did. yelled at me today because i apparently zoned out to the tv when she "told me 4 times" to get moving to get my tickets. rather amusing since i told her we had to do everything today so prices dont go up. see a few weeks ago we were looking at prices for tickets. pretty good prices. i said "alright lets get these tickets." she said she wanted to wait and look for more offers. except we never went back to it. she yelled at me for that, when she found out prices had gone up by $200, which was obviously going to happen since its airline tickets and waiting means less tickets and the companies knowing more people are buying tickets. so anyways, getting back to today, apparently my mom has the exact same humor as dave. god does that hurt my ears. very stupid, stupid jokes. if you know daves jokes, you understand completely. and she wouldnt stop talking about the surrounding buildings. i didn't even look at her when she was talking about them, it was supposed to be a clue that i wasn't interested. looks like it didn't work. she fucked up horribly on getting to the place. it took us an extra hour to get there. and she wouldn't listen to me when i was telling her to backtrack if we missed a certain street we needed to take. she said we'll keep going, and that she "knows a different way." that gave us a lot of trouble getting to the place, AND getting back home, because she insisted on taking a different route so she could save $3 for the toll. that added and extra 30 minutes to the car ride, because she got lost doing it her way as well. oh, and she ran a red light and almost hit oncoming traffic that was turning. so today was not a very fun car ride. i decided i am very happy about getting my license on the 9th. soon enough for me, at least. i also decided im never driving with my mom to boston again. Well, i think im done. i certainly got a lot out. and you guys got to read something, too. considering i never write, it must be a special occassion for you guys or something. considering it only comes about ones every 2 or 3 months. Current Mood: annoyed, bothered, and angry Current Music: Deception - Clan of Xymox (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
11:38 pm	im offended by tiffany's previous update left on my journal. those two games are not my life, and though i do play them often, it is not my entire months worth of activity. in fact, today i played soccer outside. i practiced by myself. and every weekend i try to set up playing soccer with friends. so blah to you, tiffany. blah to you. in other news, apparently girls talked about me yesterday, and they said i was sweet. i was told this randomly today when i was at varsity choir. that was interesting, considering it was the first thing told to me by the girl. whatever, it made me laugh. "Open Up" by Dispatch They were looking for me when I came to They were looking for me when I came back Said hey you, you're looking very suspicious I said relax man get off my back I said relax man get off my back I, I, I ain't opposed to seekin justice But you're going about it all wrong The man you're looking for does not exist He's just a figment of the higher man's tongue And they say Open up we're coming inside You can't run so you may as well hide We got the place covered from head to toe, head to toe Open up we're coming inside What's it feel like to know you're going to die On the other side of the road On the other side of the road On the other side of the road So they took me down to the gallows And this boy he said to me Why do you smile when the rope's around your neck I said I tell you boy when I get back I said I tell you boy when I get back I, I, I ain't opposed to seek justice But you're going about it all wrong The man you're looking for does not exist He's just a figment of the higher man's tongue He's just a victim of the higher man's tongue And they say Open up we're coming inside You can't run so you may as well hide We got the place covered from head to toe, head to toe Open up we're coming inside What's it feel like to know you're going to die On the other side of the road On the other side of the road On the other side of the road Hands above your head Que la vie est bien Step out of line and we'll fill you with lead How are we to know that you are not a liar Don't you see we have a job to do And our job is the law, job is the law You fit the description of a criminal crosser We believe that he is you and that is your flaw That is your flaw That is your flaw That is your flaw That is your flaw That is your flaw That is your flaw And they say Open up we're coming inside You can't run so you may as well hide We got the place covered from head to toe, head to toe Open up we're coming inside What's it feel like to know you're going to die On the other side of the road On the other side of the road On the other side of the road On the other side of the road Thank you, and have a good vacation everyone. ps, i am planning on going to germany for about 30 days. w00t w00t. bye bye Current Mood: whee, happiness! Current Music: Barenaked Ladies - (Live) Another Postcard (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 16th, 2005
6:41 am	Oh yes, Civ2. Need to waste my time on that. Oh and my dumb star wars game. Do-dom, do. Hey, you should try it, they aren't half bad. So anyways, I think some soup is in store. With some milk, and maybe a half of a pie. Because, boy am I hungry, yum yum. But food doesn't compare to my Tiffy, boy do I love my Tiffy. Get to see her this afternoon. We're getting haircuts together. What a day. (alright, this is Tiff, bored. General update on Stephen's life. Sounds just like him, doesn't it. :P) Current Mood: nerdy Current Music: backstreet boys (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
8:35 pm	today was interesting... i was doing pretty well, trying to relax for the day, you know, take it easy while i could. didnt go along as planned. talking with tiffany kinda "un-relaxed" me. she was talking very crazily, it was making me very uncomfortable, and unable to respond to much of anything she was saying. it was right about 1/3 of the conversation in when she started weirding me out. speaking her thoughts very openly, just altogether very unlike tiffany and very disorienting for me. now im starting to get a headache, and im unable to relax anymore, too much going on in my head from tiffany talking about everything. also worrying cuz she signed off all of a sudden, saying itd be the same if she were talking to herself... turning out to be not a good day. well, lets see if i can try to do anything about all of this. hope you enjoyed. bye bye Current Mood: blah Current Music: Drowning Pool - Tearing Away (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
9:18 pm	well , i was commanded to update, so i am. right now i have a headache from reffing for almost 5 hours straight. i have a bit of a sunburn below my eyes. i even put on sunscreen, but i guess that doesnt matter. and i only had one ref helping me for two of the three games, which made me have to run very hard. i was the center the first game, and he took center the second, so i could rest up for the third game by myself. each game we got a parent to call out of bounds for us, so for the third game i had to get two parents. didnt work out very well though cuz some of their calls were iffy. and of course because of their iffy calls i got to hear some "feedback" from the coaches. my first game was when the parents complained. told me to get my head in the game. cuz, you know, i have no idea what im doing when i referee. its not like ive been doing it for, oh, almost 2 years. and its not like i have been doing harder competition games than this for a year now. and been doing that league for a year and a half. but that never happened, no of course not. im just a teenager who doesnt know how to call a game, and the parents do. stupid parents. and it made it better cuz i got caught on my shoelace while walking back, so they loved laughing at that and telling me to watch out. good stuff that first game. oh yeah, let me tell you. i have blisters on my feet now cuz of running in cleats that are broken and a sock that basically doesnt exist on the bottom from all the wear and tear. oh, and ive been sick lately, but only when im inside, i get a stuffy nose. only inside though, like in cars and houses. its very strange and doesnt make sense. but whatever. well, theres my update, as you can tell im pretty crabby right now. on a lighter note, i watched "big fish" and my mom actually paid for my dinner/lunch from mcdonalds. i love how its a gift that my mom pas for my dinner. ive been falling pretty badly behind with my allowance money. im already in my May money and thats got 9 dollars left, and my allowance is supposed to last me til the first friday of the next month. which would be two week of school plus this week out of school where theres never any food to eat at my house because of the state my family is in with money. i think im gonna go to the bank sometime this week, take out some money to get me bakc on track with my allowance. and tiffany, dont even think about paying for my lunches during this week, or dinners, or breakfast if that ever happens to occur. well, this seems to be quite enough of an update for me, i hope you all enjoyed it. bye bye. Current Mood: sick and aching Current Music: Simpsons vs Eminem - My Name is Lenny (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 27th, 2005
8:26 pm	This is what I(Tiff) did for easter! Current Mood: horny Current Music: Cruxshadows - Even Angels Fall (Comment on this)